3 days to christmas

and i never feel soooo shitty~!~!~!~!
RAWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!

god damn~~~
some1 keng! again~ and now i am sitting at counter staring at the christmas tree~~~ hmmmmm.... it look nice at nite but look kinda average during days.

Type and type but not sure what to type in.. feeling sleepy and just feel like going back to sleep~~~ lolz.. listening to 1 song and playing it loud.. Miss Independent~ Ne - Yo...

What kinda of things i really like... In the past, able to drink beer but now, it's not easy to down it anymore... It's never been the same since a few years back.. It never been good, never been bad.. maybe something good that happen is that i have more and more frens =) more frens that i can trust on, able to talk to...

Pen down and trying to find souls in the school..

It's friday

Finally exams are over... 08 is also coming to an end in just a few weeks.
Just enjoying the songs~ imagine the dance~ move to the beat~ tapping my finger on the table to the beat~ sipping bit by bit from my cup of coffee. Life is just so relax at this moment...

Be with you

eh eh eh eh eh
Ohhhhhh

I know they wanna come and separate us but they can't do us nothin
Your the one I want and I’m a continue lovin
Cause your considered wify and I’m considered husband
And I’m a always be there for you
And either way you look at it I ain’t goin no where from my muffin
Cause she gonna hold it down, cant no body tell her nothin
You got the kind of love that always make up after fussin
And that’s what gets me closer to you

And no one knows
Why I’m into you
Cause you'll never know what its like to walk in our shoes
And no one know, the things we've been through
Can never measure up to half of what I put you through
That’s why we'll break through

And I don’t care what they say
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And I don’t care what they do
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you

Seems like every day that go by things are gettin harder
Want to be the one that give you the whole enchilada
Cause I know what my baby like, I lean you on that Prada
You ain’t got to match with the shoes
All about knowing you I’m into doing things to keep her longer
Stickin together forever, watch you grow stronger
That’s the way it has to be, everything problem
Keepin it always true

And no one knows
What I’m into you
Cause you'll never know what its like to walk in our shoes
And no one know, the things we've been through
Can never measure up to half of what I put you through
That’s why we'll break through

And I don’t care what they say
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And I don’t care what they do
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you

You are everything in my life see the joy you bring
And ain’t no one I compare you to
And I know that you will never walk away from me no matter what
And that’s why I plan to do the same thing for you
And I want you to know

And I don’t care what they say
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And I don’t care what they do
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you

And I don’t care what they say
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And I don’t care what they do
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you

Life is precious

1 bad thing is gonna happen... my reservist is ending in a few days time...
Back to my hectic and yet less freedom place..

Is it true that life is easily being handled by other ppl? Trying to figure this out.. 1 person dead.. Is it really the killer fault??? Or is there any reason that cause it... Murderer get's hang, animals being put to blame... but wat about instigator???? Some get away.. Some being killed.. sigh...

Humans, humans... Sherlyn.... u are totally rite in ur note in facebook... but wat's more we can do... as we are part of the whole human race...

I just pray that life can be cherished more by everyone, no more natural disasters, and hope that this economy downfall will not break families up...

Having reservist

long time nv update.. sigh~ as usual for me...
lazy bum~~~
but this 2 weeks have been a total slack for me..
reach reservist office at 10+.. Shhhhhhhhhhh.. they dunno i so late :p

It's so relaxing, at least for the time being..
But never the less, body still having problems.
First was breathing problem, and now it's shoulder and arm pain.
Sigh~~~~

and now, i am hoping for better life and my wishes to come true in 09.
2 more months.. this friday is d & d... and gonna see alot of hunks and babes around... hmmmmm, should i bring my camera along???

My wearing: thinking of getting stunning but office will be wearing hawaii style..
now thinking how to outstanding from them all. :p think think think hard now!!!!

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~

Happy Birthday Davina

may you stay beauty~
may you stay cheerful~
may you have blessings~

hope to see u in white gown soon in '09...

See ya around~~~~~

Never get it right

It seems like no matter how, i still can't make it right. Wanted to give u a surprise on it by sending lunch to your house knowing you r on mc today. But the news i got is sad and dampen the day. Someone already ask you out for lunch.. n the one tat told me this even better.. saying this wif laughter and nv think how sian or sad i will be..

ya.. maybe it's 1 sided but no matter wat, i just wan to show concern to her. dun wish to over-do things but tat is the least that i can do...

Sorry... but i just feel that, some1 is showing much more den just a normal good fren... doing things that i wan to do but i noe that u r attached so i not doing anything and afraid to do something wrong.


enjoy ur lunch... given to J the lunch that i bought for you. Dun wan to put it into waste... and no appetite to eat.

sign off,
remi

Bleeding Love

Seeing her cheerful smile,
Seeing her beautiful eyes,
Hearing her lovely tone,
Sensing her seriousness,
It's all in the past...

It's still lingering within me.
It's still hurting me..
It's an unforgivable sin...
It's always will be a beautiful memory for me.

Breathless & chest pain

Since saturday, feeling breathless...
After IPPT today, Feeling chest, throat pain...

What happen?


Saturday soccer is totally pissed off.. Got to only play 2nd half as usual but fed up. team leading at 1-0 at first half.. 2nd half due to some defensive errors and some star who keep on holding the ball and not releasing it, concede 2 goals before coming back at last min. But it was really ridiculous... i was subbed out after we concede 2nd goal at around 30mins timing. But my fault???? I wasn't the 1 concede the penalty.. I wasn't the 1 tat shout MY ball and let the ball swing into the net direct. Was crazy to noe some striker tried to hold ball at midfield and lost possesion but no blames nor scolding. Just becoz his a long term friend and u dun dare to scream at him????


Crazy indeed.. The team should have won if not becoz of some old birds in the team and the team manager is not willing to take them out even when they r totally not performing. Hate the feeling last saturday.

Hot and spicy

Whew~~~ the weather is really killing~~~ but i hope it is not raining this saturday... Out to buy things for just 20 mins and i'm perspiring like mad... High Dehydration mode.... Need more plain water~~~~~


Just happen to saw 1 of my ex-colleague outside and was talking to her.. Never got the chance in school to talk to her that much like just now.. Well, as she as usual wearing such a short skirts... Those ti ko lau ah pek walk pass see her like dunno wat... lolz. o well, only chat for 5 mins as we are under no covers and both of us are sweating and her make up is going to crack soon :x(hope not)

October is coming... 09 is approaching.. but yet.. no news... thinking too many things... just feel like walking in the air and hoping to hit on 1 concrete floor and move on from it...

Feeling breathless, feeling uneasy... Hiding... Too stress... tired......

Low Morale

Suddenly felt so low~ comparing myself to others... what do i have.... Qualification... lose by a whole lot chunk.. No cars, no status... Wat i have to compare to others...

So wat if i can be a good sportsman.. living in the middle doesn't makes me.. Is really down... down.... and down when i compare myself to others....

Mistakes and thoughts

Mistakes are bound to make. Even the greatest time, the worst days, happy or sad days, mistakes are still going to happen no matter where or when...

It's like a battle. A step may cause your downfall. Thinking ahead 3 steps may lead to your survival till next day.

But dunno y... Too much thoughts.. now headache is coming back again... Just dunno y or wat happen... hmmmmm, maybe somethings are wriggling inside my head???

O well, we shall see if anything pops out suddenly. =)

End of August

Is it a new beginning of the end?
Is it an end which is a new beginning?
Nobody will knows it but only me.

First time i got drunk.. real serious drunk... Too many thoughts on head can really make people drink.. I have never be that drunk.. After 1 cup, 2 cups... I still goes stronger. But however, this time, I think i had alot.. Not sure how many though..

Still remember that day had alot of funs with 2 of my frens at st james. Dance, playing finger-guessing games, dance again and drink the forfeits.. haha.. even better is that ppl comes by to get to know :x lolz.. i became bodyguard.. -_-
But tat day i did had alot of fun which i never enjoyed before over there...
Thanks to both of you, my fren :)

Trying to learn some dance movements.. and first time i did really had some movements class.. lolz.. abit slow and movements are stiff.. trying to improve as well as at home creating some steps of my own and learning steps from youtube. :p

Hopefully, my wish is to perform a song dance on stage perfectly. :)

step up - samantha jade

This songs really brings me into mood of dancing.....
It reallys lighten my mood.. No anguish, no cheers, nothing... moodless...

stop and stare

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
And I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see

They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
And I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see

What you need, what you need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
And I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do you see what I see...

Lazy Sunday

super lazy but 1st time i typing it on sunday...

o well, just coming in to kill sometime that's all.

Sorrows.... Swallow~~~~

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say that...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothing new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

Bridge (guitar/piano)

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...





no words can describe wat i feel...
silence might be the best way instead.....

Weekends....

It seems like the summer is back! Weather so hot, too hot to handle... :) Well, yesterday went to play dota competition for the first time and i believe is the last as well. A total thrashed by opponents but it was a good play in the end.

While waiting for my dad to send me my wallet, Yes, a careless me indeed. Waited for somewhile at AMK Hub and in the meantime trying to find pals to chat and eat dinner. In the end, managed to got 1. Haha. Had a great time chatting away and though very p/s as i keep on coughing away. Still, Enjoyed the moment with alots of chatting and walking around. In the end, reach home around 11.50pm.

Enjoying the song tat i posted just mins ago. With you with you with you~
Good nitez...

with you - chris brown

Love this song so much.!!!! It really lightens up my mood totally. There is something nice that it makes me smiles~~~~ not sure y also...

Just relax for now

A great day becomes a gloomy day. What time will it starts to rain? When will it stops? It's a painting that is painted by myself on my life now. Misery, dull, darkness... Evil side has overcome the light side.

Just pondering over what lies ahead. Deeply affected by what has happened in Sichuan, yes, it is natural disaster and that is fated. But still, it's a life that counts.

Reflections on water~ Droplets wave it blurred... Busy now.. Stop for now.
Cheers..

Month of Busy May

it's a hotty hotty month.. Finally some rain drops on my face... and yes.. i'm still tat lazy bum who don't carry umbrella along.

First of all, Thank you all my buddies, Jeffrey, Thomas, Lian Hong, Chee Khiang and Wormy(Chonghan)for the wonderful gift ( will take foto of it soon and put in facebook). We had a nice dinner at jack's place and my long awaited mix grill!!!! YUMMY!!!! Been wanting to eat it for so long... :p Lots of laughter and fun...

The next destination is also decided after the meal. Watching movie.. :D Quite a no. of films to choose from.. From What's happening in Las Vegas to Iron Man which i already watched. In the end we settle for Made(maid) of Honor.. :p It's a hilarious show that a guy who doesn't date with the same gal for the week in the end fall for the lady that he nearly wrongly slept with during his college day.

There is at a point of time of the film which brought back 1 of my memories. It's something which makes me drop tears in dark. Not going to elaborate on it and it will always be with me.

Time to pen down.. Take care all...

Someday Some ways

Some things never change. My Sleepiness never change. It's more and more tiring.. I really feel like sleeping at this hour..
The weather still never change.. Half day sunshine half day rain... zzzzz
Wondering what is going to be like in next few years?? lolz... maybe snow falling?? :x

O well, next month is the month where i am being born... and soooo.... hmmmm.. gonna treat my buddies to some where.. still thinking where to.. but some place where the food is nice and they nv eat before.. :)

雨中风中瞒泪中，
忧中慌中脸笑藏，
人海茫茫知音难，
数位美好在身旁。

Anyone can explain the weather???

Yawnzzz~~~ Want to sleep.... The weather is so cooling with the gentle breeze hitting on my face. Now at this hour, the skies darken like doomsday arriving..

It seems like the weather is getting hot in morning but freezing in the evening.. and its really so unlucky... This week, fitness drop... No games played.. Soccer cancelled due to raining. Sigh Sigh~~~~

Feel like jumping onto my bed and start to hide under my blankie and sleep for the rest of the day.. lolz.. though the chances for me to take leave this week is totally near to 0%, Within this email typed, i yawn twice and i believe yet more will come!~!~!~!

Can this week passby more faster??? PLS~~~~~~~~~~~~

Josh Groban & Celine Dion - The Prayer

Josh Groban & Celine Dion - The Prayer

Nice song to hear once again and again.





i pray you'll be our eyes
and watch us where we go
and help us to be wise
in times when we don't know

let this be our prayer
as we go our way
lead us to a place
guide us with your grace
to a place where we'll be safe

la luce che to dai
i pray we'll find your light
nel cuore resterò
and hold it in our hearts
a ricordarchi che
when stars go out each night
l'eterna stella sei
nella mia preghiera
let this be our prayer
quanta fede c'è
when shadows fill our day
lead us to a place
guide us with your grace

give us faith so we'll be safe.
sognamo un mondo senza più violenza
un mondo di giustizia e di speranza
ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino
simbolo di pace e di fraternità

la forza che ci dai
we ask that life be kind
e'il desiderio che
and watch us from above
ognuno trovi amore
we hope each soul will find
intorno e dentro a sé
another soul to love


let this be our prayer
just like every child
just like every child

needs to find a place,
guide us with your grace
give us faith so we'll be safe
e la fede che
hai acceso in noi
sento che ci salverà

Happy Birthday Esther Tan

Happy Birthday Esther Tan!!!!!!!!

They nv include me due to miscommunication.. So i do 1 using my blog lo~~~






HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

Tuesday!!!!!!!!

Weekends are super exhausting...
Saturday soccer, nite went out wif buddies...
Sunday noon soccer... Nite went out wif buddies again.. lolz..
Ends up sunday nite having blood shot eyes and headdaches.
Worse of the worse, Sunday morning buy Mr Bean soya bean milk.
Wanted warm milk but instead got super hot milk.. Shit! and 1st thing i know is my tongue got scalded. GRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrr!!!!

Stupid idiot....
But anyway, tournament didn't play well but we do noe where is our weakness le. 1 win 2 draw 1 lose.. Some more in group of death.... every team is so good compared to some other groups.. Gosh.. Just our luck bah.

I now seriously hoping time passes fast.. I'm sooooo tired at counter and wanting to sleep at the sight of bed. Sooooo boring at counter.... sigh....

Jay Chou - The Longest Movie (Zui Chang De Dian Ying)

我们的开始
是很长的电影
放映了三年
我票都还留着
冰上的世界
脑海中还在旋转
望着你慢慢忘记你
朦胧的时间
我们溜了多远
冰刀画的圈
圈起了谁改变
如果再重来
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是不开口才珍贵
再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了
要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭
不是因为在乎

Hot n Cold

SO HOT!~~~~ Feel like melting already... n worse still, it's going to rain soon. The weather is making almost everyone falling sick with this hot and cold like sauna.

2 days ago, had a major power cut in school while i was attending course that is making me nodding head most of the time. Argh~~~~ It's just hot!!!! Running here and there... Until at a point where i not sure why but my old back injuries came back. But luckily, it wasn't that serious....
But becoz of this.. each day i was sleeping earlier and earlier.. the day before is 11pm.. yesterday is 9 pm... :p somemore today overslept. :x

Hmmm now is waiting for weekends to come. 1 trial on saturday and sunday is futsal tournament. Like my friend said, 10 yrs we started, now is time to see how good we are.... N hopefully, i won't get any injuries from it. :p This 2 yrs been getting knocks and scars after tournament. lolz.. But lets just pray and play towards the best bah.

Cheers...

1 month 1 post -_-

hehe... Here i am again... 1 month 1 post.. :p

But true enuff, I been too busy with work, family and friends for this few weeks. It was great to know that i have just move on though the memories will still be in my soul till the day i die...

Hmmmm, Long time nv write.... dunno what to write le... Only know that i'm able to accept the fact & feedbacks now than in the past. I live to make it better than rather fearing to show it out...

Just hate politics. Damn to those who everything wants to CC copy to my boss. Trying to show that I'm not working or what... Just sick and tired of that. ARGH~~~~~

TGIF and hopefully next week will be a better week.
Take care all~

a new year a new me.....

Its been sometimes i step into my blog to write it... Been too busy for most of the time..

A few person to thank to....

Mum & Dad - to bring me into this world and show me care and concern all this year. I love u...!!!
Brother - Thanks for everything.. U taught me alot. I appreciate it. Thank you.
Pig - I noe i hurt u.. Sorry that i do... But for sure, Me and her is not together.
Cow - Congrats to you on finding a new job.. Keep it up!!!!
Thomas - Thanks for the wonderful course. I really discover what i truly want le. Thank you.

To everyone: I thank you for visiting this blog. This new year, I want to really change myself. My goal and my achievement. All will be in.

signing off....